This is LiN's Life

Really nt in da mood, now wif news tat there is a possibility of retrenchment. Wat da ya tink? Shld I stay till end of year collect the benefits than look for another job r juz go ahead n start looking fr nw.

I tink work had exhausted me, I have done everything there is to do. No more challenges for me, too many things bogging me dwn. I tink I was at my best when I was wif SR, I had the whole office to myself, however, the environment was not suitable for me. I like being wif pple, interact n work wif them, that is why I like the co-ordinator job, but I dont like the marketing part. OR the fact that I had to face 4 walls alone everyday, only the phone ring to accompany me. I was almost a "Mountain tortoise".

Hav been trying to read bks, (yikes!, I'm becoming more like my Hubb nw!!!). Im trying to do some soul searching b4 I embark on my next career journey. Dun want to be a job hopper anymore. Fact is, I dont consider myself a job hopper. I only branched out fr a technical job, exploring wat else I could do wif tat dip of mine. I found out tat there is a whole world out there, I tink I had stretched my dip to its max, in tat journey, I had discovered my real potential, my capabilities, this current job was a mistake. I was doing so well in the previous jobs, I just wanted an easy escape, dun blame me, I was goin thru alot in my personal life at tat moment tat I cant take tat extra pressure, to mit the sales target. I know I will breakdwn. My ex-boses were good pple, well most of the time, they understood me. I do feel guilty for lying to them on the real reason as to why I left but I cant muster enuff courage to tell them. Well, it doesn't matter nw does it?

My mind is so fragmented today. Mixed feelings too. I am lost in a maze.